im back after so long =) been rather bz wif work..
its already a brand new yr..

ok 31 dec that day..i nvr went for any countdown...i jus went back home after work..thought at least my mum will be at home or something..and realised that even she went for countdown when i got home...den i feel so lonely..so i went to blast my radio...at least there's some noise in the hse..ok so actualli can say i pass my countdown wif the radio as they count to a brand new yr...however,it didnt excites me at all wif tis brand new yr..everything is still as usual...

anw my wishlist has a bit of changes for tis new yr if u notice....

since the 1st week of a brand new yr..i have been working almost everyday,cuz one of my colleagues got sent to hospital when she fainted at home...so im coverin all her shift...doing some gd deed,at the same time i can earn more money..hehe... =p

and i feel like im kinda lost touch wif the outside world, especially frens...everyday jus go work,after work went back home,reached home quite late already,so nvr realli get to use the comp....anw,finally get to rest these 2 days after last week working spree..hmm..went to chinatown ytd to do my profiling at the artist company,and they say they will call me when there's chance to act at ch8 or ch5...haha cant imagine myself doing that..

been realli slacking these 2 days..at home playing psp and do nothing much...tml have to get back to work agn..duno is i slack too much these 2 days or wad,dun feel like goin to work tml....oh ya,my expenses have been realli high recently..thx to the adult fare on the public transport,it realli taking the hell lot of money out of me..i wan my bike! >.<

and seriously i need to get back in touch wif all my frens...

thats all i guess,the summarized version. =)

something is jus better if it's left unsaid..
when? when? when?
when can i have my chance to get to noe u? =

Had 2 days off since christmas..been resting at home and i find the time pass realli fast...i shall start with christmas eve ba..

24 Dec
i got out of the hse earlier cuz i need to go to the post office to collect my driving license photocard =) but..becuz of it, i was late for work by 20mins! im so guilty...although my manager nvr say any..but still i feel guilty la..

den at nite..my manager still let me off earli..he let me off at 930pm..but in order to correct my wrong..i wrote i sign out at 9pm...hope it helps ba..

anw i went to jt hse straight after my work..and found out when i reach his hse doorstep that both jt n zy r sending their gfs home at kovan..so jt's dad let me in 1st and wait for them lor...luckily i got my psp to accompany me =)

ok so they were back..they still left some food for me to eat..so we continue wif the bbq...with their gfs already home..i feel more comfortable...not i being bad or wad la..it realli feels so weird being the super big lightbulb there when there r 2 couples rite?

we had our christmas countdown while we r having our bbq..sent out n receive quite a few christmas smses =) then we 3 sit together and had our wine together n made a wish for each of us...jt's wish is the most wei da one i mus say...in any case..i jus hope my wish come true..pray hard....

after the bbq..we went up to the room...and zy started playing cs..i jus surf around the net..and jt tok to his gf over the room...we jus did our own stuffs..then zy was the 1st one to knockout...den left jt n me play a round of dota..and jt oso cant take it and went to slp...left me alone there duno wad to do...somemore i nvr bring my contact lens case and i still need to work the nxt day...so i have no choice..and i dun wan to wake them up..so i left them a sms and left jt hse around 4am+...

jus when i was walking halfway back home..i saw my dad wif his fren at a coffee shop that i walked pass smoking..so coincidence...so he sent me back wif his new taxi, hyundai sonata..can realli feel the horsepower of the car is realli strong..can feel the jerk when moving off =) anw i got home bath n etc..finally got to slp around 530am..

25 Dec
Merry Christmas everyone! ^^

went to work as usual...and i reach there earli =) nth much happened actualli...except someone approach me for a job..to work at the indoor soccer court...he gave me his namecard..asked me to giv him a call if im interested...

haha so weird la..i was serving his gf with the shoes and he suddenly bring tis up to me....well, i got a compliment card from my customer today too =D

thats all.

26 and 27 Dec
rest at home these 2 days, cuz is my off days =) its been so long since i got 2 days off straight...haha..nth much to do...jus spent most of my time playing my psp, since it is modified now and i got some games to play =p

and i jus find the time pass real fast these 2 days...tml need to work agn..

the end.
i tink im goin to get emo real soon agn...

was my off day ytd...so my colleague and i plan to go back to tm outlet to walk n take a look at wad they actualli sell..cuz after the shop jus opened a few days ago..we dun have the chance to go in n take a look...cuz we were working..and oso..we were wearing the uniform cannot go in..thats the company rule la.. =.=

anw..i went there and guess wad? i said i wanna save up money for my bike..and end up i bought a pair of shoes there...but is realli realli nice..i myself like it alot =D jus hope is realli worth the money spent =) den we went to have pastamania after that..its been quite some time since i ate it...it's still as nice ^^

jus happened..we received a sms from the manger that they goin to celebrate auntie's bday ltr on after they close the shop...so we decided to stay around..and we walk duno hw many rounds of tm n cs =.= until wanna rot le...finally the time came..and my colleague n i went to collect the cake 1st..after that we meet up at tm's mac and celebrated..and i took the last bus home ^^

i guess ytd was quite alright ba...oh ya and i got my psp modified too..cool =p

well for today...work as usual..but got chase home at 8pm by the manger..he said i worked too much hours already..so ask back go back home earli =.= retarded rite? wad company's policy is that? no choice la...so i got home earli tonite....

did nth much except playing my psp =) i finally find my psp is worth the money..lol

well, tml is christmas eve le..and im not looking forward to it at all...btw i still need to work ma..haha perhaps is oso gd..cuz it keep myself occupied...den maybe at nite after work goin to jt hse for a small bbq they goin to have tml..im goin to be some xtra agn =.= 2 couples...

the end.

somehow, u caught my eyes.
ytd u were there when i went back to shop..
today, u r not working i guess,
but u were here at the shop when i was abt to go back home
i wonder why.

Went for lunch alone b4 work at a coffee shop near my hse..the feelings is weird...like u sitting there alone eating, u will realise everyone who walked pass will be looking at u....

anw, work today was rather ok..rather bored actualli...but tml is my off day le =) i wonder wad to do tml....hmm..

oh ya! i broke the news of me already gotten my bike license to my mum ytd nite...surprisingly, she replied calmly and say nth much in fact...jus said that, straight away go get a car license n drive better ba...and i jus smile back.. =) cuz her response was realli surprising.

well, at least i told her i got my bike license already..another thing of my mind ^^ for now..i jus have to save up money and buy my bike..after that, i need to find ways to tell her agn that im already riding on the road..i wonder wad will her response be then >.< i doubt is a gd one though...but heck care la..i realli wanna ride on the road..

and im realli trying my best to save up the money as much as i can..like during my breaktime for work..i purposely go find something that is cheap to eat...and i wont buy drinks n etc..cuz i bring along a big big water bottle there =)

i realli wan that 3 things very much..in fact, might be 4 things already...cuz im goin to add in that i mus and will get a gd o lvl result that will be release realli soon..so i can get into TP nxt yr and a ideal course which i haven tink of it yet though.....

thats all.
bye.

off day tml =)

Im back.

Surprisingly, time pass rather fast today..maybe i kept myself occupied whole day by packing n checking stocks...and i guess my manager had his worse day ever today..got 2 customers came up to him saying our service sux and blah blah blah...saying that we helped them reserve stock..after so long still nvr call them...i realli pity him..he goin to resign soon, yet goin to get complains from all these nonsense customers.

anw, been finding myself didnt tok much recently..either emo or mind jus went blank...especially when im alone on the bus rides to work and from work back home..realli hate all these bus riding journeys..

and and i still finding ways for saving up my money faster or a gurantor to get my bike asap...but deep inside, i noe very well i wont get it so fast one...but cant help it la..i realli wanna ride on the road..moreover, nxt month onwards i have to pay adult fare for public transport...sian

haiz..i oso duno how la..now only time can solve the problems.

still those 3 things nvr fail to get me emo...

Alright..start work at 2pm today...so i went for a haircut b4 that =) hmm..somehow i tink the hairdresser cut too much...my hair is abit short now i tink..but shall not let tis bother me too much, shall tink on the bright side, hair will grow back ^^

cuz i already got so much other stuffs that are bothering me already...

ok, work for today is quite alright..but i tink the environment is getting more n more complicated...i no longer work here as happy as i worked here last yr..my colleagues start to bad mouth-ing others...i bet when im not around they will bad mouth abt me oso...the working environment totalli change...i find it more n more difficult to get along wif them except a few..

anw, with the current situation...i tink after tis month, i no longer have the chance to work here anymore..for duno wad reason, somehw i can jus feel it..last yr oso got somebody got fired after the dec festive season....moreover, i myself tinks that my performance tis yr is realli bad compared to my performance last yr..

time to look for some backup real soon...and i so want to get my bike la..haiz..problem wif cash...i tink i can 4get abt the gurantor thingy, nobody is willing to do that..

well well well, some nai tong or rather the fairy godMAOther said i nvr blog abt her so she wont look at my blog..so here i am, i wonder if she will realli come n murder me like wad she said after she see tis. >.<

bye.
work,work and work..wad else in my life?

today is a bad bad day for me...seriously hate it ! hate everything, hate myself..argh.

ok i shall start wif that i met the person who is goin to sell me the bike kawa kips tis morning..we met at my hse downstairs...have a look at the bike..not too bad..btr den i thought at least...but met wif some problems la..so i cant able to own it asap...the problem is that if i pay full cash, i need to pay 3.8k straight..and i realised that my bank money is getting lesser la, 3.8k shldnt be a problem to me last time...but now..haiz...ok, so if i dun pay straight..i will need to pay a rougly 1k downpayment 1st..den every month i need to pay 116 for 2 yrs...actualli i can afford that..but here comes the problem..if i need to pay downpayment, i need a guarantor who is 21 yrs old n above..haiz....who can i find? i can totalli 4get abt my parents..

in conclusion, i realli wanna to own the bike asap la..but i cant! the choices i have are only..either i lend around 2k from someone..or i find someone who is 21 yrs old n above to be my guarantor..haiz one of the problems that make me so moody today..

anw, met jt n cj after that at kovan to have our lunch...den went vivo to meet wif zy n his gf..and so we proceed to sentosa's palawan beach....

win le lor..2 couples there...im like being so xtra la..haiz..den somemore today wadever i play today oso kinda screwed up..be it volleyball, soccer or frisbe...and guess wad..i tried to " act smart" and pump the ball high up in the air and it happened to stuck at the tree's branch where it is so damn high la..so jt, zy and i spent so much time trying to find things to throw up and try hit the ball down and i realli mean alot of time, like around at least 30mins ? ...ok, so after so much attempts..the ball finally got down wif the help of zy n jt...i feel so guilty la, not my ball oso..den i hit it n get stuck up in the tree, still need them to help it to get down..

haiz..today's sentosa trip is a bad n not enjoyable one for me la..go there be xtra between the 2 pair of couples only...den no mood to play all the games oso and got everything screwed up...damn! wth is wrong wif me ?!

anw, we went to catch a movie after sentosa...watched "the warlords" hmm..i mus say the story is rather confusing..but overall not bad la...den after that zy n his gf go off 1st..and jt,cj and i took train back to kovan to have our dinner and took bus home....

im seriously so hate today la, hate myself, hate everything! i cant able to get my bike asap when i am so close to it...den go sentosa screwed up everything..im so damn moody today la..argh! u guys noe abt the 5Cs thingy abt a guy? seriously i have nth that is similar to it la ! i feel like such a failure..haiz.

NO MONEY, NO BIKE, NO GF !!

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